{"id":5432,"date":"2021-01-12T21:06:32","date_gmt":"2021-01-12T20:06:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/?p=5432"},"modified":"2021-03-10T21:10:20","modified_gmt":"2021-03-10T20:10:20","slug":"styczen-i-plany","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/en\/blog\/2021\/01\/12\/styczen-i-plany\/","title":{"rendered":"Stycze\u0144 i plany"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Styczen to taki miesi\u0105c \u017ce niekt\u00f3rzy robi\u0105 plany, postanowienia, albo ciesz\u0105 si\u0119 sukcesami zesz\u0142ego roku..<\/div>\n
Podobno przesz\u0142e \u017cycie mia\u0142am bardzo sympatyczne. Dobra niezale\u017cna praca, wygodny dom, luksusy, mo\u017ce i mi\u0142o\u015b\u0107. Og\u00f3lnie Venus sprzyja\u0142a. Bajka. Nawet zacz\u0119\u0142am pisa\u0107 po koniec \u017cycia. I robi\u0142am ca\u0142e zycie w edukacji. Wida\u0107 czego\u015b nie sko\u0144czy\u0142am..<\/div>\n
Niezale\u017cna praca w mi\u0119dzynarodowej organizacji edukacyjnej…<\/div>\n
W przesz\u0142ym \u017cyciu? To musia\u0142 by\u0107 Steiner i jego szko\u0142y. W tamtych czasach. Bo nadal niepozamykane sprawy.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ale sukcesy.. \u017badnych sukces\u00f3w w tym \u017cyciu. W klasycznym sensie. \u017badnych szcz\u0119\u015b\u0107. Czy szcz\u0119\u015bcia. Przyjemno\u015b\u0107 – nik\u0142a. Wtedy gdy robota daje przyjemno\u015b\u0107. A tak mam \u017ce mi daje.<\/div>\n
A potem mnie wyka\u0144cza.<\/div>\n
\u017badnego domu, \u017cadnych pieni\u0119dzy, \u017cadnych osi\u0105gni\u0119\u0107, \u017cadnych zako\u0144czonych projekt\u00f3w.. No nic.. Haha.. N\u0119dza.<\/div>\n
Tak bywa.<\/div>\n
I podobno ma BY\u0106 POTEM.<\/div>\n
TAKIE WIECIE – WYIMAGINOWANE POTEM<\/div>\n
POWIEDZA\u0141 PAN B\u00d3G.<\/div>\n
Albo \u017ale go zrozumia\u0142am.<\/div>\n
Te\u017c mog\u0142o tak by\u0107…<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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To \u017cycie ma inne zadania. I wyzwania. Jestem na p\u00f3 \u0142metku i po raz kolejny mam nieziemsko dosy\u0107. No co ja do cholery my\u015bla\u0142am planuj\u0105c to \u017cycie z Bogiem za piecem. Co ja kurr do cholery my\u015bla\u0142am haha…<\/div>\n
No \u017ce dam rad\u0119. A potem przyjdzie taki co pomo\u017ce…<\/div>\n
MA SA KRA…<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Mam spore sukcesy szczeg\u00f3lnego typu:<\/div>\n
Nadal \u017cyj\u0119.<\/div>\n
No a przecie\u017c nie musz\u0119. Wielu uzna\u0142o \u017ce nie musi. Bo za ci\u0119\u017cko<\/div>\n
Wysz\u0142am z piek\u0142a.<\/div>\n
Kilka razy.<\/div>\n
Nie znalaz\u0142am si\u0119 w szpitalu psychiatrycznym. A dwie znajome z podobnym \u017cyciorysem – nawet mniej drastycznym – tak.<\/div>\n
Nie mam raka.<\/div>\n
Nie wyl\u0105dowa\u0142am w szpitalu … z depresj\u0105 nerwic\u0105 za\u0142amaniem nerwowym.. czymkolwiek<\/div>\n
Jako\u015b sama to ogarniam. Nie lubi\u0119 szpitali<\/div>\n
I lekarzy.<\/div>\n
W ko\u0144cu mam ascendent w pannie. sam sobie lekarzem sterem…<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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No i dziecko mi nie umar\u0142o. A mog\u0142o..<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I co jeszcze?<\/div>\n
Aha.. nikt mnie nie zabi\u0142 gdzie\u015b tam w \u015bwiecie w r\u00f3\u017cnych dziwnych miejscach.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Nadal mam si\u0142\u0119 zaczyna\u0107 od nowa\/. Wszystko.<\/div>\n
Prace. Projekty. Zwi\u0105zki. Domy.<\/div>\n
No nie wiem ile jeszcze.<\/div>\n
Pewnie tyle na ile starczy nadziei.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Albo mo\u017ce po prostu mam kr\u00f3tk\u0105 pami\u0119\u0107 albo ca\u0142kiem demencj\u0119 i w zwi\u0105zku z tym jest mi ca\u0142kiem wszystko jedno…<\/div>\n
No nie.<\/div>\n
Demencja wyklucza depresj\u0119.<\/div>\n
Tak wi\u0119c po prostu jestem nieuleczalnie naiwna pe\u0142na nadziei<\/div>\n
I nauczy\u0142am si\u0119 u\u015bmiecha\u0107.<\/div>\n
Bo wiecie tak?<\/div>\n
\u017be jak si\u0119 u\u015bmiechni\u0119cie na si\u0142\u0119 do lustra to co\u015b w \u015brodku tez si\u0119 do was u\u015bmiechnie.<\/div>\n
I potem mo\u017cna g\u0142\u0119biej odetchn\u0105\u0107.<\/div>\n
I u\u015bmiechn\u0105\u0107 si\u0119 NAPRAWD\u0118.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Styczen to taki miesi\u0105c \u017ce niekt\u00f3rzy robi\u0105 plany, postanowienia, albo ciesz\u0105 si\u0119 sukcesami zesz\u0142ego roku.. Podobno przesz\u0142e \u017cycie mia\u0142am bardzo […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":5433,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[652,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5432","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-duchowosc","category-potencjal-i-pasja"],"spectra_custom_meta":{"_edit_lock":["1615406893:2"],"_edit_last":["2"],"_thumbnail_id":["5433"],"_wp_old_date":["2021-03-10"],"_uag_page_assets":["a:9:{s:3:\"css\";s:0:\"\";s:2:\"js\";s:0:\"\";s:18:\"current_block_list\";a:0:{}s:8:\"uag_flag\";b:0;s:11:\"uag_version\";s:10:\"1775454065\";s:6:\"gfonts\";a:0:{}s:10:\"gfonts_url\";s:0:\"\";s:12:\"gfonts_files\";a:0:{}s:14:\"uag_faq_layout\";b:0;}"]},"uagb_featured_image_src":{"full":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n.jpg",800,664,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-150x150.jpg",150,150,true],"medium":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-300x249.jpg",300,249,true],"medium_large":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-768x637.jpg",640,531,true],"large":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n.jpg",640,531,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n.jpg",800,664,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n.jpg",800,664,false],"trp-custom-language-flag":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n.jpg",14,12,false],"illdy-blog-list":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-750x500.jpg",750,500,true],"illdy-widget-recent-posts":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-70x70.jpg",70,70,true],"illdy-blog-post-related-articles":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-240x206.jpg",240,206,true],"illdy-front-page-latest-news":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-250x213.jpg",250,213,true],"illdy-front-page-testimonials":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-127x127.jpg",127,127,true],"illdy-front-page-projects":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-476x476.jpg",476,476,true],"illdy-front-page-person":["https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/138427507_10160694658050299_1291495152973389193_n-125x125.jpg",125,125,true]},"uagb_author_info":{"display_name":"Joanna Choluj","author_link":"https:\/\/joannacholuj.pl\/en\/blog\/author\/joannacholuj\/"},"uagb_comment_info":0,"uagb_excerpt":"Styczen to taki miesi\u0105c \u017ce niekt\u00f3rzy robi\u0105 plany, postanowienia, albo ciesz\u0105 si\u0119 sukcesami zesz\u0142ego roku.. 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